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In my last blog post I wrote about identifying the difference between a twin flame and a karmic soul mate. This time I thought I would share exactly what it feels like to actually be in a relationship with your twin flame, and the burn of passion and love. Read on, because you will see this applies whether the two of you are friends, lovers, estranged or married.
What started out as a simple post about sexual chemistry has become a cathartic confession of my own unrequited relationship. I am going to attempt to not give private details about my personal interaction with my twin flame, as I feel a need to hold some things sacred, but I will share a general discourse on those amazing and sometimes gut-wrenching emotions that I and other twin flames have reported to experiencing in my case research.
Meeting Your Twin Flame
As previously discussed a karmic soul mate often precedes meeting your twin flame. When I met my karmic soul mate, my ex husband, the first words out my mouth was, “Damn! His body is fine!” And he was and still is a glorious specimen of male beauty. I wanted to acquire him, conquer him and make him mine, a purely ego relationship. However, the day I first saw my Twin Flame walking through the building at work….I swear even now…I can’t remember his exact build at that time.
I remember his head, because of the cellular blue tooth in his ear and this weird ethereal white light glowing around him. And just like that, a voice said, “That’s your husband.” Your…mind you, not my…so the voice I heard was not my own, but Holy Spirit. I shook it off…continued my karmic relationship and never considered whether I would meet him or not. But I hadn’t yet looked into his eyes. I just saw him in passing so it wasn’t an actual meeting.
One day, through forces out of my control; I found myself assigned to his building. I was blissfully pregnant by my fiancee, whom I lived with, and could have cared less about this guy. However, for some strange reason, women began disparaging me to him. Trying to make me unappealing, and I was just so confused as to why. Now I realize that other souls sense when two twin flames are about to connect. If the others have karmic ties or a sexual attraction to one of you they will try very hard to prevent or destroy the union. The day I walked into the building and he looked into my eyes there was an instant familiarity and sense of utter serenity and security. Like wrapping yourself up in your favorite blanket during the winter time and drinking hot chocolate. Yeah, that feeling.
When your eyes meet, the feeling is like a bright burst of sunlight that sparks between each other. It is like for a minute, especially if you are not prepared for it, everything else in the room will fade away and you literally only see each other. It brings a feeling of being magnetized to him/her as if they own you, body and soul, and that feels quite comfortable! No my pulse didn’t race. No I did not really look at his body and all of that. Just a deeply profound knowing, blowing in over you like a jasmine scented summer breeze. In that moment and forever after, you know that we belong together, and that this kind of certainty only comes once in a lifetime.
Getting To Know Your Twin Flame
There is flirtation. There is deep, soul revealing conversations. There develops an awareness of sexual chemistry. However, the sexual chemistry is not the focus, the friendship is most important. There is an unspoken communication, and a surprising territorial aspect, especially for the man, that everyone around you instinctively recognizes. Even if you are only friends, to others it will feel like more. Many people, who did not know us personally, seeing my twin and I just innocently talking together thought he was my husband. We give off that energy, in fact if we flirt in front of people it has even sexually aroused them to just be around us, making them feel uncomfortable, as I have been told.
In conversations, instinctively I often know what not to say to him and how to buffer his emotions, as well as what makes him angry, even as I do it, usually out of frustration. I can play with him and at the same time be mindful about things of his nature, that I intuitively know without being told. We make each other laugh at stuff most people would not think is funny or understand. We have weird things in common though we appear complete opposite.
We might explain ourselves to each other out of habit of doing that with others, but really do not have to do it. And when we hide our feelings about things the other one instinctively knows the truth, even if we say differently. I can’t tell you how many times he has called me on my bullshit, or moved me by his concern and care, stemming from his intuitive understanding of me. I have cried like a baby secretly, from happiness and joy of being discovered to the core of my being, without any explanation. I know he is not aware that he has done this, because as I have said, he is unawakened.
I tell him how I feel, but only superficially. He hasn’t heard half of the depth of love and compassion I have for him, that I am sharing here. How I feel his frustrations with situations in his life, he is not even aware of I know about, nor can articulate. I intuitively know his real feelings, the ones he hides from others, even himself, behind his play station, hard work, movies and stoic silence. How he had to keep his hands busy in my presence and why.
I see his shyness, his innocence behind the brave and gregarious mask. I see the skinny, big headed nerd behind the muscular hot jock. And then there is that unspoken magnetic feeling that makes you feel like you are married already, in a sense. It was frustrating just being his friend and trying to date or talk to another man while he was in my life, without feeling like I was cheating. In the past, even my ex suspected my feelings for him the whole time. My twin was always the pink elephant in the room of our relationship. And when my twin and I were friends again, all the men that I tried to date; I ended up telling them all about my twin problems and asking their advice! Even the celebrity I had a crush on, who was attracted to me in return; I sabotaged that by talking about my twin flame!
I disagree that there is no intense sexual chemistry. There is, but it plays as an undercurrent, subliminally, and it grows gradually as you begin unraveling the layers of each other and discover you are twin flames. It is not the forefront of emotion, but instead a deep bond or friendship is prevalent. But when the two are alone and becoming aware, there is a dynamic sexual connection whether you are platonic or sexual, it does not matter. And though twins are usually outwardly polar opposites of each other we have a moral, emotional, sexual, spiritual and mental compatibility that leads to creative businesses or ministry and cataclysmic sexual union or if repressed huge fights and distance.
And whether they do have sex or not they both know it. If one of the twins are unawakened it may result in an unrequited love, such as I have experienced, with ongoing little arguments and distance. This is due to one of the twins trying to forcefully deny the connection, though the one asleep will feel inexorably compelled by their twin to somehow stay linked to them, even secretly.
To me, twin flames are two people that despite differences, distance and years maintains this undercurrent relationship, that continues to develop until they are ready to take up their destined mantles of uplifting humanity. My feelings of my twin flame are epic and we have never had more than a friendship. In fact, it has been a four year separation and a reunion of only three months since he has been in my life and it feels like three years. Normal relationships do not feel like that.
The awakened one will feel the karmic sexual ties, though the other one does not, or insulates him/herself against feeling it, out of fear. The actual sexual feelings are like a kick in the gut. The chemistry is unlike any experience of sexual attraction that one can ever experience. I hear alot of people talk about the peaceful and calm feeling of security and understanding you feel with your twin. That is very true. You could spend hours in separate rooms or cities and be happy, or sit next to each other and not speak. However, I feel that is because we have mastery over those basic desires and can hold back the sexual energy and focus on our mental or spiritual connection. I believe that intense spiritual and sexual energy transmuted is what makes us such dynamic light workers and spiritual teachers.
But… if the two of you are alone, and decide to release that sexual energy to be seen and felt by the other, you better believe it will take your actual breath from your lungs! Like whoosh! First of all, you feel each others feelings, like a vibratory low hum all the time, because you mirror one another. So if that person is thinking about having sex with you or is horny whether it relates to you or not,even remotely, you will feel it.
All that person has to do is walk into the room, with that primal sexual energy, and everything changes in an instant. The air becomes electric, your body instantly responds, even if you have never been intimate, and it will literally freak you out the first time it happens! That always scares me so much and is so embarrassing, especially in public, that I won’t even look at him!.
lol! In fact, I want to run screaming from the room! I am a sensual woman and an empath, so in a normal relationship, I get overwhelmed by a man’s sexual energy. All it takes is that look…. ladies you know the one! I am incredibly shy when I feel a sexual attraction for someone. So when a man emits that energy it always unhinges me a bit. But, we are talking about my twin flame relationship. OMG! I nearly passed out at work before!
A person can have had many relationships and been in love several times. But from experience, as well as countless research studies I have done, the level of sexual chemistry with a twin flame goes beyond attraction. It becomes a pulsing, fireball of gut wrenching, ecstasy inducing spiritual sexual energy. Yes, spiritual! Because even though you feel it physically, it is as if the parts of your body affected are connected to your soul and that soul body remembers that person in a deeply responsive feeling of complete and utter submission, love and passion.
Can you imagine if that was unrequited? And only one of you felt that? You would go a little insane right? Welcome to my world! And so now once again I find myself out in the cold. My twin is adamant about only being friends and says clearly he is not attracted to me. I did not listen so he cut our ties completely, which I guess I deserved, hard headed as I am. So I must pick up my feelings like a tattered suitcase and get packing. I don’t know why this seven year drama had to occur in my life; but I guess God/dess has a good reason. I am now trying to find the blessing in the midst of this pain and learn whatever karmic lesson I need to fulfill my destiny. Life goes on and I am releasing him on his life journey in love.
Blessed Be! If you are going through a similar experience write in. I could use the company!
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